My Story: From Dying Inside to Fully Alive

For over 20 years, I helped people transform their financial lives as a credit expert and analyst.

I was exceptional at it. Everyone told me so - how smart I was, how funny, how generous, what a gem. I built successful businesses helping others.

While I was smoking just to calm myself down. While I was suicidal. While I was dying inside.

No matter how much I achieved or how many people I helped, I was never enough.

The Outside Looked Great

I gave up my businesses, started over, tried "normal" jobs just to pay the bills and live a simple life. Still, everyone praised me. Still, I was broken inside.

That's the thing about pain - you can hide it behind success. You can bury it under productivity. You can numb it with work, with substances, with being the guy everyone counts on.

But it doesn't go away. It waits.

The Problem Wasn't What I Thought

For years, I thought the problem was external. Wrong job. Wrong relationship. Wrong circumstances. If I could just fix the outside, the inside would follow.

It never worked.

Because the problem wasn't my circumstances. The problem was my foundation: me.

I had no real relationship with myself. I didn't know who I was underneath the performance. I had spent so long being what everyone else needed that I had no idea what I needed.

Ten Years of Deep Work

I spent ten years in intensive transformational work.

Landmark Worldwide. MITT (Mastery in Transformational Training). Insight Seminars. Ancestral medicine.

I didn't dabble. I went all in. I sat in rooms where people told the truth. I faced things I had buried for decades. I learned to see myself clearly - not the story I told about myself, but what was actually there.

Through these experiences, I discovered something that changed everything: there are levels to this work. And I had been trying to fix higher levels while my foundation was crumbling.

The 7 Levels of Self

What emerged from that decade became the framework I now teach.

Seven levels, in order:

• Individual - your relationship with yourself

• Family - the people you come home to

• Groups - friends, coworkers, extended circles

• Community - your role in something bigger than your personal life

• Society - your relationship with reality as it is

• World - your connection to humanity beyond your borders

• Generations - what you're building that will outlast you

The breakthrough wasn't just understanding these levels. It was realizing you can't skip them.

I had been trying to impact the world while I couldn't look at myself in the mirror. I was trying to build a legacy while my family didn't know who I really was.

No wonder nothing held.

The Distinction That Set Me Free

The other thing I learned - maybe the most important thing - was the difference between acceptance and agreement.

For years, I fought against my past. I resisted my trauma. I argued with reality. And that resistance kept me stuck in the exact place I was trying to escape.

When I finally accepted where I was - really accepted it, without excuses or blame - everything shifted.

Acceptance doesn't mean agreement. I didn't have to call my past good or fair. I just had to stop fighting the fact that it happened.

That distinction rewrote my story.

Now This Is My Work

Today, I'm no longer dying inside. I'm fully alive.

Not because my circumstances are perfect. Because my foundation is solid. Because I have a real relationship with myself. Because I know who I am and what I'm building.

Now, this is my work: helping you do the same.

I run workshops, retreats, and free monthly masterminds. I teach the 7 Levels of Self framework. I help people see where they actually are - not where they think they are - and build from there.

Why I Do This

My why is simple: responsibility.

I'm creating the ultimate win-win-win:

• For me: I get to live my purpose through retreats, workshops, and community

• For you: You get clarity, freedom, fulfillment

• For our teachers: They discover that giving actually allows them to receive more than they imagined

For too long, I only saw the world through lose-win, win-lose, or lose-lose. That's all we seem to have on a global level.

It's time for real change. It starts with each of us doing the inner work to become whole.

If This Resonates

I'm here for the seekers. The strivers. The ones who look successful on the outside but know something's missing.

If you're ready to stop performing and start living, this work is for you.

Start with the free assessment - it'll show you where you actually stand across all 7 levels.

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Or join me at the next free monthly mastermind - live, interactive, no fluff.

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You're not too late. You're not too broken. You're exactly where you need to be to start.